How badly I wanted to ask if you were okay? Your body language was screaming out for me to ask. It’s not that I am emotionally retarded, but that the last time I tried to break through your walls you ran, and have only just started to talk to me again. So this time with you standing in front of me looking so vulnerable, I know you know that I saw it. That sudden change in you. Even though I wanted so badly to ask, in that split second I chose not to ask. I chose to change the subject and walk away. Or risk you shutting me out again. My actions have got me questioning everything again. How can I be anything if I can’t be myself around you?It’s my innate nature to care, but I can’t with you because, I am scared of how you will react. So confused. So conflicted. So over it. Not you but just IT.