• I feel like I’ve already lost you

    by  • April 24, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Confusion • 0 Comments

    You admitted having feelings for this “friend” that you barely know but you’re confused and scared of long term commitment with me. I’m being so generous with my time and patience because I saw how genuine those feelings were when you opened up to me about it. I want to make this work. We have the potential for a spectacular future together. You and I both know that. But we can’t go on like this. I need to feel like you want me. Like you miss me. I can cope with this if I know that it’s just a phase guys go through, if you’re backing away from that “friend” and if I sense sincerity when you speak to me. But I don’t know if it is normal.

    I have very few people that I can turn to and rely on to be truthful.

    I love you. I know long distance is hard. If you wanted me there Id move in with you in a flash but I can’t weigh up what bothers you more; the long distance or it being like we’re moving too fast when I am there. I need to know how to find the right balance.

    I think we’ve both taken each other for granted and I for one have learnt my lesson. This has been a huge wake up call and made me realise it is you I want. I think you want me too but I’m getting to the point where I need you to prove it. I don’t know how long I’m supposed to be patient for when I’m getting no answers. But equally I don’t want to walk away from what could be a brilliant future. I hope you make the right choice. I hope someone guides you along the right path. I hope that path brings you to me but if it doesn’t at least then I can try to move on I guess. I love you babs we can do this. It will make or break us for sure xxxxxx

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