Hello Tomato, we broke up more than a month and a week back and I know you think because I broke up I’m not sad or regretful and you also think it was an way decision.
Yes, we broke up because of our religious differences and because I’m kinda tired of some of the bullshit you give me. I grew a bit tired and I could hold on, you know it. I’ve been through so much with you. You wanted to know again and again the real reasons why we broke up and here it goes; religion – you’re Hindu, I’m from a conservative christian family and you know it will never work out in a country that can’t tolerate these things and we know how our parents are although we can work after this hurdle; Crap you gave me – I could stay with you even with all the crap you give me, I love you, and it didn’t matter much because I know how you love me; my career – I’m sorry to say this now but you were in my way and being with you indirectly was affecting my productivity, it wouldn’t have if you didn’t give me all the crap; lifestyle – you have a good lifestyle and I don’t spend much and going out with you made me spend a lot even if you tried to help me save by spending yourself, I couldn’t adjust with you, I needed money to save but I couldn’t with you around; and there are some more that I don’t want to bring up but these are the basic reasons. I know they could be resolved, I could give you one more chance, I could make changes and make things work, baby but I can’t go against my parents right now. Nor can I put my career at the stake in any way possible.
(i just got a text from you, it made me smile)
Sorry. I still love you but I’m not ready for a relation. Breaking up the was toughest thing I ever did with you. I know it hurt, you know how? it hurt like crazy to me too. I still think of you everyday. Thank you for the letter you gave me the next day, I did thank you, didn’t I? Anyway, I read it occasionally and it makes cry that someone would love me so badly. I don’t know if anyone will love me as much as you do and I’m sure I’ll regret this years later but parents say no, so does everybody I know because ‘you know why’.
You know baby, I still remember how we used to make out and love each other. Just beautiful. The beautiful places we went. The amazing times we had. The hill, the riverside (our weed spot), the parks, the zoo, million of restaurants, and all that. It might have cost us a lost in this venture of ours but baby, they are priceless memories and experiences. I can’t thank you enough for giving me all that, all that no one ever gave me.
Fucking love you baby. I’m a coward just as you called me that and I’m sorry that I can’t go against everybody I know just for the sake of you. You matter a lot but it won’t work baby. It will work after a huge bag of hurdles but I don’t want hurdles right now while building my career or during these crucial years. You get it? I can’t tell you all these in person because I’m scared I might fall in love? Anyway, baby, take care. I’m sorry for the tears and for everything. I know it’s really selfish of me and I’m ashamed of myself. Sorry.
Love, Your Potato. 🙂