Dear Kept in the dark,
He’s a keeper because you don’t know what he said about you. You don’t know the endless shit talk and scam he ran. You don’t know how he tried to triangulate the situation. You don’t know how he said all the disgusting things he said. God only knows the shit he said about me in the past. I’m pretty damn sure he cheated on me too. Oh and he admitted he was a narc BTW. Let’s see what other shit did he run past me? Oh yeah, that you weren’t attractive, smelled, and were fat. Oh yeah, and that he was desperate when you met on the dating website because your profile picture looked way better than you in real life. Hmm, what else did I wish I never knew? Oh yeah, that he was sick of you pressuring him and you trapped him. Cliche right? Hmm. Don’t even get me started on the pics he asked for and what he tried to get me to believe. Oh yes. Sick bastard. Said you were bpd or a narcissist. Oh he blamed so much on you. If I was anything like him, I’d be a selfish bitch and hurt him with this info. But he knew I would never do that. You are innocent and don’t deserve any of this. I’m not fucking evil like him. I feel bad knowing all of this. I feel like I was a party to it even though I didn’t know the real truth until recently. He was a real pussy bitch about it all too. I had to find all this out because motherfucker never admitted Jack shit! Here’s a tip. You’d better keep your job because he needs money. You’d better keep yourself in shape because otherwise he’ll degrade you to any chick he finds more “arousing” than you and that includes porn. He can be quite attentive right? Well he said he had to manufacture those feelings for you. Sick right? Yes he used the words manufacture. Last but not least, his ace in the hole is guilt. And crazy making. He can make you feel like a princess right? And then pull the fucking rug right out from under you when you least expect it. Unless he has come clean with this, like I did btw, unfortunately everything is suspect. You just might realize one day you never knew him at all. And isn’t that scary? The most twisted thing of all is someone else will always be at fault. It will never be him to admit he played both sides. I’ll be known as the crazy delusional ex and you’ll be known as the insecure delusional GF. I wish you luck even though you are living blissfully in the dark. Thankfully I am no longer blind as I was for so many years. I can guarantee you he will never understand the pain he has caused. He will never understand nor care about anything that doesn’t benefit him. On the rare occasion he “acts” sorry it’s only because he doesn’t like feeling badly about himself. It has nothing to do with your actual feelings. It’s all about him. I could go on and on. And I have. I’m ashamed actually at how much energy I’ve expended on this mistake. But I guess that’s what happens when someone you trust mindfucks you.
*note to anyone reading this- yes I know I was stupid for believing. I know.