• Maybe

    by  • April 19, 2014 • * Safe for Work * • 5 Comments

    You are living the life that’s meant to be for us with someone else.
    The feelings you have for me, you simply project onto her.
    It always was, it will be always.

    Our timing was so last minute, still enough time to minimize hurt – but you have chosen to listen to your “how and what you want to”. You listened to your ‘never failing’ believe of what truth is.

    This was so much easier for you, such seemingly perfect fit, so convenient, I know.

    Destiny with me as a strange hiccup within it’s path.
    Nobody ever needs a permanent hiccup, dear.

    I learned to understand but truth is – you long for me as much as I long for you.
    I do not envy her but rather feel sorry! While what I do is wrong, what you do is so much more wrong and on many levels. Deep down you know it too.

    I am free, very much so – even with you.

    I hope you don’t ever wake up to everything lost because my love for you wishes you nothing but happiness.

    Not sure how this will work out if I ever decide to find my own.

    5 Responses to Maybe

    1. stranger
      April 19, 2014 at 11:46 pm

      If he truly cared for you (in any way) he’d do one of two things.

      Be with you


      Cut you loose

      Stringing you along is self serving, no matter how much you say you’re free. He’s a dick, to you, and to his girlfriend/wife/bf/whatever. Also, yes, what you’re doing is wrong, but anyway…

    2. agree
      April 20, 2014 at 6:38 am

      Have to agree with stranger. Been where you are. I got cut loose though. This person is a self serving jackass. He won’t ever really be with you because you accept his breadcrumbs. Does he justify his actions based on duty to his family? Bunch of b.s. He will push and pull til you pressure him and then he will be gone….only to show up days weeks months or years later to do it all again.

    3. stranger 2
      April 20, 2014 at 11:02 am

      Agree with you stranger.

    4. Chris
      April 21, 2014 at 8:45 am

      It is you who is kidding yourself, and projecting on someone else your own feelings. Just accept, that he is what he is, and move on. Not easy, but deal with it, with a sense of reality…I am sure he never thinks of you at all, if he is with someone else or he would be with you. For guys like this, its not about you, its about them.

    5. .
      April 22, 2014 at 6:10 am

      All of you are right, I know.

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