I made a mistake. I don’t love him. You mean more to me than anyone else ever will! I love you with all of my heart…you’re the guy i wanted to spend the rest of my life with! I don’t know how to tell you how sorry i am because i can never find the right words. I wanted to up and kill myself after he and i messed around….i almost did too….our decision affected not only us, but you and Caroline as well. I’ve got a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and i don’t know how to get rid of it. I know you say that you still love me, but do you really? How could you love me when i lied straight to your face?! How could you love me after i broke your heart and tried to cover it up?! Why would you even want to try again….