• Whirlwind

    by  • April 11, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Yearning • 3 Comments

    I am a thousand different things right now and none of them have any cohesiveness or direction. A bunch of little pieces all flying around at different speeds and now I’m angry and nauseous and sore and sad and sick and I know something has to come into play so I can see how they fit together and cure me and what scares me is what if you’re that piece?
    What if you are the clarity, the thing that makes it all okay again?
    I miss you, okay?
    Every single day you’re not with me, I miss you.
    I love you, and I think you know that.
    I think you know I never stopped being in love with you, not for a day.
    And you don’t have to love me back, that’s not what I’m saying, we’re both way too afraid of intimacy for that, but…
    But I care about you
    You have a hold on me that I can’t break, not now, and not anytime soon. And maybe you don’t need me, but this…this thing we have, it works, right?
    But it could be more.
    I mean, not like, a full relationship, we can’t do that again, but just a kiss goodnight every now and then, something more heartfelt than “bye” when we leave.
    like…platonically dating. If that makes any sense. I know it doesn’t.
    I legitimately want to love you. Selflessly, wholly, you.
    And that is terrifying, but it is true. I’m yours. More than I’ve ever been.

    3 Responses to Whirlwind

    1. one word
      April 11, 2014 at 3:17 am


    2. :)
      April 11, 2014 at 4:23 am

      Do not be afraid.

    3. M73
      April 11, 2014 at 9:25 am

      I’d say yes 🙂

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