I never deserved any of that. I am a human being, not a score. Why bother writing me letters about how you were not into it for the sex, if that was all it was? I begged you not to do what you did to me. I know you don’t believe in God, but do you even have a moral code of decency? I would give anything to rewind time and erase you. I would give anything to be able to get out of that room, away from you. I want my sanity and fidelity back. Even with you living in another state, it doesn’t matter. I just want to go back and say no louder. I wish you nothing but unhappiness. You destroyed my life, then skipped town like a cowardly loser. Please, do not smile. Please do not live well. You are the worst of men. You are not elegant. You are repulsive. Repulsive. You cause people trauma. I’m so glad your wife found someone to replace you. I’m glad your boys now have a real man as a father. I am so sick of the nightmares. I look forward to the day I hear you are dead.