• It’s Been Two Years now…

    by  • April 8, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Wish • 1 Comment

    And I still cry for you every night. I still keep hoping that my phone will ring and it will be you, or better still you will show up at my door. It’s what I wish for every time, when I throw coins in fountains, or blow out candles, or see a star.
    It’s been two years and I still can’t bear another man’s hands on me – I flinch at even the most innocent of touches. I think it’s safe to say that there is never going to be anyone else – I am broken beyond repair and it would be unfair to give someone damaged goods.
    Little things remind me of you and sometimes I don’t need reminders at all, sometimes I’ll just be going about my life and the thought of you will pop into my head and it will feel like someone shoved a red hot poker right through me.
    I have been yours for the last 8 years in whatever capacity you wanted me. And even though I will probably never see you again and that’s almost certainly for the best, I will be yours for the rest of my life. Heart, body, soul and anything else I have to give. That’s OK, you’re the most amazing person I’ve ever met, even just the memories of you beat the hell out of ever person I’ve met before or since.

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    One Response to It’s Been Two Years now…

    1. me too
      April 8, 2014 at 4:19 am

      I thought i was the only person that held on to my past with such
      intensity…like you I CAN NOT let it/him go…
      most days I don’t want to….his memory makes everything pale in comparison…but some days the thought of never being loved again chokes me with fear….I hope you find your peace…
      I hope knowing that someone else is broken in the exact same way makes you feel less alone…
      well wishes dearest!



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