• Regrets

    by  • March 31, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 2 Comments

    I blame myself for believing you. I blame myself for not keeping you at a distance. I blame myself for reacting to your avoidance behaviors when I should have just walked away without a word. I blame myself for letting your actions affect my self esteem. I blame myself for fore- seeing the outcome and yet letting you persuade me to think it would be different. I blame myself for not ever being enough for things to have turned out differently. I blame myself for letting you treat me this way, making excuses for you, and making it so damn easy to disappear again.

    Yeah yeah. I know.

    2 Responses to Regrets

    1. Look ahead.
      April 1, 2014 at 6:18 am

      Catch them and fight with them or leave them behind and forget them! Don’t be so passive and stop doing things half-heartedly (“foreseeing the outcome” and “letting you persuade me to think it would be different” sounds like that). Do never think of yourself as “not ever being enough”. Pitying yourself does not help. Never. It’s absolutely unnecessary and a total waste of time.

    2. author
      April 2, 2014 at 9:45 am

      @look ahead: thank you. I don’t usually indulge in pity parties, I was just trying to figure out where my anger was coming from. (Instead of displacing it on my friend and all.) I know now that some things just happen and the best thing to do is just try to take something positive from the experience. Thank you.

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