• Please Come Back

    by  • March 29, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 2 Comments

    Dear Self,
    I can remember the last time you were really happy. I don’t mean happy for a night, a couple of hours, maybe a day…I mean the last time you were genuinely happy with your life. I don’t quite know what happened. You’re empty on the inside. You’re so empty and I hate seeing you like that day after day but I don’t know what to do to help you. I feel so helpless. I don’t know what to tell you to get your spirit back. The past year I’ve watched you use sex to try and fill your void. I’ve watched you use drugs and alcohol in attempt to numb the empty feeling. The distractions work for a little while, but then I have to watch you look back at me in the mirror time and time after with that same vacant and hollow stare. I don’t know how to make you feel whole. I’m trying, I’m trying so hard, but you keep slipping away. I feel you suffocating and drowning on the inside while everyone else is watching you smile. I don’t understand the emptiness. I miss when you were whole.

    Please come back to me,

    2 Responses to Please Come Back

    1. B
      March 29, 2014 at 10:49 pm

      How about this question on here for a change: Are you me??

    2. You will be fine.
      March 30, 2014 at 4:17 am

      I know that feeling too well. There seems to be no light, you just see a dark tunnel. It’s not easy. It is sad. It is horrible. But you know what? You are not alone. You can be proud of yourself that you dared to live, crash and burn. AND: it will go away. You probably don’t believe me, but you should. It will get better. You will be fine. I know you can’t believe it, but sometime you will. And it’s good that you are in this state now. Even though you don’t know what it’s good for. You will grow, you will learn to see the beauty in your life. You will learn to acknowledge the small things. You will enjoy to see what you have and what is in you. You will find peace.

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