• Weightless

    by  • March 28, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Addiction • 1 Comment

    I’m starving myself.
    I hate the way I look, I hate the way I feel.. so I starve myself. If I don’t wake up dizzy or light headed, I don’t eat the rest of the day. If I eat anything bad or unhealthy, I take a laxative, or force myself to throw up.
    This isn’t who I want to be. I don’t want to do this. But I can’t stop. I love feeling empty because it feels like home. I love feeling weightless because I have been carrying burdens my entire life. I can’t control the way people look at me or judge me, but I can control what I do with my body.. And I hate what I’m doing.
    My mom and step mom are worried about me. My mom started crying. I am hurting the ones I love for my own selfishness. I hate this feeling.

    I’m going to change. I am going to start slow and do things healthy for now on. I can’t imagine me not able to have kids because I was so concerned about how others looked at me. I can’t imagine my funeral being within the next 5 years.
    I need to change. I want to change.
    If you are starving yourself, or think you arent good enough.. Stop thinking like that. You are beautiful. Inside and out. You are BEAUTIFUL.

    One Response to Weightless

    1. tricia
      March 29, 2014 at 7:05 am

      you should never starve yourself to lose weight 1. its unhealthy 2. ppl gain more weight in doing so because when you eventually do eat your body will store it as fat. eating six small meals a day actually helps you lose weight but before starting that the number one thing to do first is love yourself, yes i understand the weight thing, i have three kids which two are twins. i look good for having three kids but im not where i want to be weight wise. tell yourself everyday you’re beautiful. best approach is keeping it healthy, mentally, emotionally and physically. you’ll feel Wu better in doing so

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