• My dear old friend

    by  • March 28, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Friends • 0 Comments

    I was always there for you. I was there for you when you needed a friend. I was there for you when you were at you very lowest. I didn’t judge, I held you up and tried to be the best friend I could be for you. All you did was take and take until there was nothing left to give. When I needed you, you were there only if it were convenient for you. You always put yourself first. Now, you feel above me. You smugly judge me. Your turn your back on me, why? How could you? After everything I’ve done for you? Did our friendship really mean nothing to you? Is it true? You were only using me after all? I had not thought about you in such a long time. What made me even think of you today, I don’t know. All I wanted to do was congratulate you on your new child. I wanted to tell you how I recently had a child, too. I wanted two old friends to just tell each other they were happy for one another, that is it. I don’t know why you wouldn’t even let me do that but I must be ok with it. I must let you turn away and not chase after you, as I remember do before in our friendship when things would go bad. It’s hard looking back. Realizing, you were never there for me. You were never my friend. You were and still are, only about you. So, I let you go now and forever. From this moment forward, I will not think of you, I will not speak your name, I will not allow one memory of you to entertain my thoughts. I’m sure I’ve given you the satisfaction of feeling pity for me, tonight. Pity that I still cared enough to try and reach out to you, for only a moment, that which you hastily denied me. Your cold mannerism shows your true colors. I should have seen them all along but it’s hard when you want to see only the best in your friend. So this is the final good-bye. You need not worry, I will never again attempt to contact you, if I happen by you in the street, I won’t even glance your direction. As if, you no longer exist. This is how you prefer it, so be it. I will erase you from my mind. I will erase you from my memory. You are no longer amidst my thoughts, you are no longer in my heart. I’m sorry, I’m sorry I wasted all those years, all the tears, all that energy in trying to keep something that was never real to begin with, shame on me. Shame on me, for not seeing who you truly are. Your a selfish user. I wash my hands of you.

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