I’m leaving this here where you will never see it.
One major regret I have is not flying out there. Not because of why you may think though. Because with me physically in your face we could have resolved everything in a positive manner. It wouldn’t have disintegrated into nothing and silence.
It wouldn’t have turned into this thing where you got to act like you let me down easy when we both know that’s not me or my intention in this. That’s what you projected on me to get your closure and do “what’s right for you” in your life right now.
I’m taking the blame in this too. I was confused and did and said things I regret. But I never treated you like you weren’t important or valid.
I can’t talk to you because it’s been months and I still get angry. I’m angry at myself too. And most of all I’m angry that your coping methods are so fucked up and convoluted I know I’ll always feel bitterness towards you.