As soon as you read this, you will know in your heart this is for you. We had something special – God, it was something else. Staying awake all night long to text each other because we didn’t want to miss anything. I know you didn’t forget.
I cannot, for the life of me, ignore the words you said. For once in your life, you were happy. You weren’t stuck in some dead end relationship anymore that you wanted out of. You had me, and I had you.
Since I have your attention, and you know who you are, let me say that (because of jealousy/bitterness over you and me) I had enemies. They lied to you. I don’t know what they said, but I know you cannot just shut off feelings like that. It had to be something that hurt you or left you feeling betrayed, and I wish I knew what it was. I may not have told you everything, but I would never hurt or deceive you. Ever. But you believed otherwise.
Regardless, you left me. Again. It’s been a long, tough healing process, but I’ve made it through. I can’t say that if you texted me right now telling me you wanted to see me that I wouldn’t jump on the opportunity, so I’m begging you to stay away. My head is telling me to tell you to stay away, but my heart says try again. I can’t be hurt again. Not by you. So, unless you’re ready for something that’s beautiful, committed, and out of this world – then please stay right where you are.
Last thing – I know I said some hurtful things. I was broken. But, baby, if you see this, know that whether you decide to come back or not, I would have loved you like no other. I would have adored you, been faithful to you, supported you and your kids. The thing is… I still will. I’ll always be here.
I love you,