I really want to hate him. He makes me sooôoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo unhappy. I thought he was the only thing that brought happiness, I’ve convinced myself of this. But he hates me, he is soooo mean. I cry because I broke my own heart BC I told myself lies. I told myself he accepted me, he wanted me, he loved m. But he thinks im ugly and I will hate myself forever. I can’t face him again, please, God, help me. I want to never see him again, please don’t make me face him, I need a way to escape from him and cut him out of my life for ever.