I think about it daily. You. Consuming my thoughts. Have I made the right choice? Are you the one for me? You are perfect in every way, but you have baggage that I never pictured myself involved with. As time goes on, I tilt back and forth, back and forth on if I should leave you. Leave the one that treats me so well for the chance to meet someone else that can give me what I eventually want. But will that new person be as good as you? I fear I will not find it if I leave you. Everyday my hesitation continues and doubt arises. I am scared to severe you off. Fear of being alone and by myself. But, in some sense, I am by myself due to your other obligations that life has dealt you. You don’t give me any resolution when I ask. You slip into my life and give vague answers and at times, I feel it is just a selfish way to keep you near me for your own fears of being alone. Everyday I wake up thinking that I will see the light and I will have the answer. But I hold onto you, like a tethered rope that will soon wear away from the elements. Why can’t you make the sacrifices to what I want. If you love me the way you say you do, then why the excuses? I picture a future with you, but then part of me pulls away from that vision. Are my doubts giving me my answer? I don’t know how much longer I can do this for you.