When you love your best friend more than a best friend how the hell do you stop, how do you cope? When you hear your best friend tell you they love someone else, you have to pretend to be happy about that, when all you really want is for them to love you.. but you are happy that they are happy but you want them to be happy with you but it will never happen.
I find it really hard to cope with the fact I’m in love with my best friend I have been for years but it’s got tougher and the pain that it has caused me along the way I haven’t got over. I have tried to put my feelings to the back of my head to tell myself it can’t happen to tell my stupid heart that it isn’t worth it because it would never happen but it’s no use, I can’t control my heart I’ve tried. So how do I learn to cope with the fact that the person I love will never love me like that, I have coped with it to an extent but I can’t get the thought of my best friend out of my head they are there all the time I know sometimes when you can’t have something it makes u want it more, maybe that is the case as well. It drove me crazy at one point I had to get control of myself and I did to an extent but it’s not fully gone It hurts it’s confusing its a total headfuck especially when you can’t walk away from a friendship being in love with a best friend is so tough. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t in love.