It is hard for me to see what you are doing. Do you recognize that you are sabotaging yourself? That you are constructing situations that can’t be solved? That you let your sense of self worth depend on what comes from the outside? You think you need that. It makes me want to shake you. I love you and it hurts me too see that. I know how your mind works and that’s what shows me that I won’t be able to do anything about it. I can’t help you without getting killed. You thought that you needed me, but I can’t believe that you ever truly loved me.