• Emotionally Damaged

    by  • March 19, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Heartbreak • 7 Comments

    So.. wat was the hi all about…
    Trying hard to get over it
    Love u
    Forgive u
    Forget u.
    Ignore u
    Block u
    Hate u.
    All and everything
    At the same time
    Reading and reading..
    And the queatns still unanswered
    How to get over u
    How to move on….

    How to check out of this Hotel California

    And each time i find reasons to just stick on to u.

    I ask myself…wheres my ego?
    A heartbreak is often and mostly cured by love again… but how to love again?

    Heart broken .. but still its you
    How blind.. hoe dumb.. how sick i can be
    Y doesnt my trust in u… die.
    And y cant i trust anyone again

    Life is beautiful they say
    But y cnt i live it again
    I wanna dream.. i wanna fly
    My wings???
    Where r they

    Get lost i wanna say
    With the strongest pitch
    But y do i start finding you again

    Key to happiness
    Make peace with your past
    Let me please

    The questions dnt let me
    The answer is blowing in the wind

    Back to square 1
    Emotionally Damaged I am

    7 Responses to Emotionally Damaged

    1. e
      March 20, 2014 at 12:23 am

      Beautiful.. Amazing

    2. Tears in my eyes.
      March 20, 2014 at 4:34 am

      That is so sad. Maybe you need to have a conversation with them to be able to heal.

    3. Wish I could believe...
      March 20, 2014 at 11:38 am

      … and sometimes I do. And then I think I’m so stupid to trust you.

    4. Author
      March 20, 2014 at 7:48 pm

      Sometimes all you need is just to know wat it wss for him.. so mch of silence is killing. I wanna peep in his mind.. see wat exactly he thinks..feels… y such a behavior. ..
      I love him with all my heart.. and the feel is all enough for me to carry on in life with content, coz i knw its Him : the one.
      My search has ended it feels.
      I dnt want him bck. I really dnt.
      Its just that y brain dsnt let me b happy. His behavior, the situatns and everything else, speaks out loud … that i hv been fooled. I hv made peace with this thought too.. but i need to knw. The truth. I cannot live like this.
      Strange na.. wen all i am looking for is just this,,, and he cant giv me tht too. Hah. Answers it all

    5. questions
      March 20, 2014 at 8:59 pm

      I really liked your letter. The Hotel California reference was brilliant – at least it resonates with what I’m going through.

      And yes, I agree with @tears, an honest conversation with your person is sometimes what is truly needed to heal, to answer all those unanswered questions.

      But sometimes, that is the difficult part, setting up that conversation and letting it progress to a stage where both are comfortable in letting everything out.

      And just out of curiosity, if your person ever told you that they loved you and wanted to be with you – will you let them? Or is your goal just to make peace with the past and move on?

      I hope everything works out for you, author.

    6. I know...
      March 22, 2014 at 3:29 am

      These feelings all to well and I know my love does too. Its painful…to play tug of war with yourself over something so emotionally gripping. I also agree with @tears about finding the time and place to really open up to each other and let everything out. Get the answers to all of those unanswered questions. It will at least help fill that empty feeling inside. No one said you have to date again. But I think given the way you feel, you should leave that open ended and go with how you feel after having an open honest conversation. If you dont end up dating again, at least you got the proper closure your needing to help you move on. If you do start dating again, then great, you might have just solved a lot of problems neither of you knew you had. What do you really have to lose?

    7. keep them hooked
      July 22, 2014 at 10:54 am

      They don’t want closure. That’s the thing.

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