How is it possible to love someone who hurt you so badly? I was on and off with my ex boyfriend for 2 years but known him for about 4. I wouldn’t say I’m still in love with him but I still think of him a lot and wish him the best although he treated me like absolute shit for almost our entire short lived relationship. He use to lead me on, disappear and reappear into my life, used me, stole from me and then abandoned me like it was nothing.
My other ex boyfriend, my most recent one also hurt me a lot when I found out he was cheating on me but he treated me much better while we were together, like it felt like a real relationship. With the guy I’m nuts about, it never did. He always left me wanting more. But just based on how I was treated, you’d think I would be heartbroken over the second guy but I’m not. I don’t even care for some reason. I actually wish bad upon him.
Why do I still care and think about my ex? I feel like I’m obsessed, not in the sense that I stalk him or anything just like I’m always trying to find someone to replace him, replace what he meant to me.
Does this make sense to anyone? Am I just weird?