• Caring.

    by  • March 16, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Confession • 1 Comment

    One of the things you told me not to say, remember when you told me not to bother you with my thoughts?

    I was always good hiding my emotions and feelings, I could always choose to ignore them but then I could never connect to anybody, but when I decide to turn them on all I feel is hurt, lost and doubtting. It’s so easy to be your friend and close my inside, it’s so great to know that you think everything is alright and that I am ok which is the answer that I give you when I am truly not, I don’t wanna ruin your life, I would rather lie to you and say I am okay but I truly don’t want to care, I changed now I do care but I please don’t want to care and it is hurting me every second, I’m making a choice for me…. I’ve decided not to care anymore, and I’m sorry but you won’t even notice it… I have to lie to you, to protect myself, I’m not a bad person, after all you’ve done the same thing so I am sorry that I am not sorry… It is just easier to be this way, maybe you might even feel that we connect “click” as friends but I will never, caring hurts and it’s just not for me.

    One Response to Caring.

    1. Nicole
      March 16, 2014 at 7:19 pm

      I feel exactly like that with my person…I hope it works out for you…
      It’s been eons for me and I still haven’t mastered it..

      my person once said you love a person because you can’t not..i think I agree…
      best of luck

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