I feel like a terrible person.
My boyfriend’s best friend is one of his ex-girlfriends. She’s really great, i love her and her and I have become friends because of him. He and I have been together for 9 months with no issues. But recently I’ve been feeling very insecure around her. They hang out a lot, late at night, by themselves in his bedroom.
I trust him, I love him. He isn’t the jealous type, but clearly I am and I have a very vivid imagination. It runs wild and I can’t help but think of things and then I get scared and all I want to do it cry.
Last night his best friend got kicked out/ran away from home. She texted two people: her boyfriend and my boyfriend. Her shitty boyfriend didn’t respond right away, but mine did. I know they’re friends, but he picked her up and brought her home and she almost slept over and I’ve just been freaking out all by myself worrying about it.
I want to talk to him about it, but I want to do it in person because I don’t want to fight over the phone if it comes to that.
I’m afraid if I say something he’ll think I’m accusing him. Or he’ll be upset that I think like this. I don’t want to fight. I love him. I’m just scared and I don’t know what to do.
I know I should talk to him about it, but I don’t want him to think that I don’t trust him or I don’t like her. I just don’t like them alone together.
I feel insecure because she’s pretty and funny and she knows what she wants to do with her life. I’ve never thought I was pretty until he told me I was. And I’m only funny because that’s the only thing I know how to do. And I have no idea what I want to do with my life.
I just want him to hug me and tell me everything is okay.