I had exactly the same opinion much earlier. I know how it feels. Maybe you can understand now, why I was not able to trust you later. Why I felt pitied for how I felt. Why I ran for the hills. It was toxic, but why? I think now, our hearts opened and closed simultanously as a reaction to the other’s action. I went through every small detail to rebuild what happened and why. I think I found some answers. It were small things, misunderstandings, different “rules” that caused irritation, doubt and distance on both sides. But what happened? It never got away, because there was something. Maybe we changed roles now.