• after all this time…

    by  • March 14, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Love - Pure and Simple • 9 Comments

    I’m still tormented by the thought of losing you…I’ve written you thousands of letters..on other sites and random places and never go back and check for a reply..on paper..stored in old phones..folders on computers…in my head…and I still have not been able to find the necessary words to convey how much you meant and still mean to me…you saved me…literally..validated what little sense of self I ever had..gave me some thing to hope for…wanting to one day be acceptable in your eyes keeps me on the precipice of self control..the tether that keeps me from going to far. There are no words for how I love you……there is so much I want to say to you …every day I’m reminded of you..still…I’ve read soo many letters that are reminiscent of words you would say..but I never comment as I’m reasonably sure its not you..if it were I suppose you would have read some reminiscent of me… I’ve never wrote on this site ..i told myself I would not write again…but it becomes too much to bare again…if I had thought you wouldn’t have been disgusted by the pathetic-ness of it I would have been on your door step long ago…so I try to find solace in this…i can’t help but wonder how you are, like truly..deep inside and that text message you randomly received after like six months of anguished silence was my way of conforming you are alive…at least the message was delivered sooo..you have to be alive, I refuse to think otherwise…there are so many questions and so many little things I would pay to say …but it’s pointless posing them to the wind..so I won’t…I just reiterate that I love you endlessly in every way possible.. I miss the conversations that were air to me..beyond all other things you were my closest friend…i miss the stability you added to my life..my mind..i wish I could’ve done the same for you..and would spend the rest of my life trying if you ever let me…And I see soo many things that I didn’t before..you of course were always right…and you’re still the voice in my head…

    To you L.T.G
    from the woman / girl in Carolina whose initial rhymes with bee..

    9 Responses to after all this time…

    1. Familiar indeed
      March 14, 2014 at 1:08 pm

      Golf Charlie Tango

    2. Ha ha II
      March 14, 2014 at 1:46 pm

      Mike Echo Mike Sierra Alpha Whisky do the Foxtrot.

      Right, Papa ?

      That second name is pretty good !

    3. nicole
      March 14, 2014 at 2:27 pm

      ???? Curiosity got the best of me…

    4. Thank you for the hint !
      March 14, 2014 at 4:32 pm

      P? As in ..

      So we have B .C, D, E, G, T, V, Z

      Zelda ?

      Is that you, honey bunny?
      OMG…you’re the only one I could love 3x a day.

      Oh, how I miss your flowing brook of sweet nectar; your expression of approval
      for my tugs and soul kisses.

    5. @ nicole
      March 15, 2014 at 3:03 pm

      Curiosity is a good thing.
      Warmer re; aka Delta Whiskey ?

      Mike Alpha , Romeo Indigo

    6. you're welcome...
      March 16, 2014 at 1:10 am

      My first reaction was omg it’s you ….heart ceases to beat..
      then I realize that most likely it’s just an extreme amount of coincidence…etc. Etc. The Zelda bit got me…among other things
      …but it can’t be…

      Oh so tempted to ask for more info…but I’m pretty positive I’m not your person…so sorry….

      If I had been I would have been happy…
      wish you well
      hope you find her

    7. dude...
      March 16, 2014 at 7:06 pm

      Not that it matters in the least…
      but indulge me please…WHAT was the point of using the NATO alphabet to say gibberish???

      I suppose I should feel flattered that my letter induced a reaction …but…just but…

      whoever you are please chill with the cryptic messages…

    8. Carrie
      May 5, 2014 at 9:45 pm

      The second name was nice huh??
      specifically designed for you to have a clue who it might be…
      who ever you are why did you guess Zelda??
      because Z rhymes with bee or other reasons??
      can’t get it out of my head…almost too coincidental really..

      soooo I’ll try again…
      I never call you this but if you are my Ty please please please fill in the rest of your name…1st and middle please


    9. Zelda was a joke
      May 6, 2014 at 2:44 pm

      …that I saw..the name… used once by on of the ‘high probability targets ‘

      100% certainty on any questions regarding ‘whereabouts’ of subject. Monte made one innocuous comment recently and some fairly significant ‘indications’ just vanished. Poof !

      Now Nicole, likely related or connected to the NATO call letters, was just seeking some answers.

      So don’t pull any misdirects or diversions…because that’s exactly what you’re doing.
      I’m sure she knows those those tactics at this stage.

      After all, weren’t you once known as The Desert Fox? (I guess that would be plural)

      In the Dale of Scott?

      Alpha Zulu to Bravo Mike, out.

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