Today I let you pass through my mind again.
I try not to let nagging, nasty, niggling jealousy get to me.
A jealousy I create in my mind.
Born from lies and a girl I can hardly trust.
This story unfolds and cuts me deeper.
I’m lying helpless on the floor.
Then I remember.
You make laughter come out from my lungs like a waterfall and I have trouble stopping it.
You make my eyes dance around when looking at you for I fear I stared too long.
When I’m with you, I feel like our souls become one, I feel like our spirits have been connected long before our time.
I feel like the weight of a thousand stones are off my back.
You make me feel smart.
You make me feel lost.
You make me feel connected, to someone, something, that hasn’t hurt me yet. I don’t understand why I haven’t told you. I care about your feelings….more than my own.