I go through and replay what happened everyday in my head.
The Break up
The hypocritical comments
The moving out
The heart break
It is always an accident when something reminds me of you, and then my brain just takes over from there spinning into the past:
What was said, what was misunderstood, why you may have thought this or that, what things could be like now if we were still together, and where will I be next time I see you.
I never can avoid it!
I hate the drama. I hate that people just blow up at each other instead of trying to understand. I hate that others make outlandish assumptions and kill relationships. I hate that the moment I walk away and someone is probably talking.
Obviously it is unavoidable.
I am trying to move on as hard as I can. I don’t need you, nor do I want you in my life right now… or ever! I have been so thankful and fortunate that you left. I thank God for giving me the strength to walk my own path.
Yet, I can’t stop the tortured replays of real life.