Yeah, I get why leaving immediately after I made my conclusion would have simplified it. Certainly not a pleasant lesson. Better to be a cold bitch than…whatever that long whinded mess was. As for the other stuff, I think I’ll be needing to black list that completely. Paranoia, inability to articulate, I’m boring myself conversationally, and so much irritation at exactly how many similarities there were. I didn’t need to ask his why, I knew. “No thank you, you seem nice but I have patterns I can’t keep repeating in my own life.”, I should have stopped myself at that, got up and left.
Writing out my goals will do me no good if I can’t abide by my own blueprint to get to that better space. Now excuse me, I’m going to get back to whistling while I work.