• misery

    by  • March 8, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Love - Pure and Simple • 1 Comment

    Dear beloved familiar stranger,

    The last weeks showed me many things and I’m still learning to feel how I made you feel. Inarticulate I am, I know. It’s nothing that comes easy, because I’m not used to it. I’m crying a lot. Every day a bit more, as it seems. You were right with many things and I’m slowly getting aware of what you want me to feel. You were right, my heart was damaged before. In hardened up. I have a clue why that is, but it is really painful to admit – even to myself. Be angry with me, punish me, be mad at me, everything helps. If you knew me better and the people that I’m surrounded by, you might better understand why I am the way I am. You might not think of me and them the way you do.

    I want you, I want to be with you. You and no one else. If you want that too, please tell me for real. What we both have is nothing ordinary, nothing that can ever be replaced. I appreciate you. I worship you. I love you. I love you so much that it makes me cry. I can’t stop. I can’t stop. I just can’t stop. It was there for too long and I don’t want to let you go. Though I know that you want me to. I know, that I need to let you do, what’s best for you. I will, don’t be scared, I will.

    The ghost who wants to accept and wants to be there for you and everyone who makes you happy.

    One Response to misery

    1. You want
      March 8, 2014 at 9:13 pm

      If you want something, you have to go and get it and not wait for it to come to you. No excuse is good enough or it’s just not important enough. Put effort to it if it’s worth putting effort to. LINS is not showing effort it’s cleansing yourself, your mind for yourself only.

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