• Shattered and Scarred

    by  • March 5, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 0 Comments

    Please stop. Stop hurting me. Please stop reeling me in, seducing me, caring about me. Please stop leaving once you have me. Stop disappearing. Stop breaking me. Stop breaking my heart. Stop breaking my will. Stop breaking my confidence. Please, please, please stop.
    I know I should be stronger. But I’m not. I have walked away from you 3 times in the last 2 years and you have come after me, morphing into the person I can’t resist, as soon as I let you in and start to trust you, you do it again. You manipulate me, you steal from me, you cheat on me and you leave. My heart is so shattered and scarred that its become an ugly, ugly secret that I’m ashamed of. How could I let you do this to me? How could I repeatedly let you have the power to single-handedly turn me into a wreck. I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I’m a mess. I’m a pale imitation of the person I was when I met you. I don’t know how to find the girl that I was. I don’t know how to stop wanting you. I don’t know how to stop thinking that you’re the only person in the world who can stop it hurting. Please walk away. Please leave me alone. I need to start trying to rebuild myself. And I’m so scared. I’m so alone and scared and lost.

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