I don’t even know what to say. I feel like I’m crazy. I have all this heartbreak over you-someone who hardly even knows I exist and wouldn’t take the time of day if you happened to see me on the street. I don’t know why I feel the way that I do, all these feelings that you’ll never know and never share. I don’t mean anything to you, there’s millions of girls like me just wishing you’d give them a chance. I’m tired of this crush. It was fun once-that bubbly, happy feeling whenever I’d see your face. Now, it’s more like a crushing sensation. This crush hurts and I want to be done with it.
I’ve daydreamed about us, had thoughts about what it would be like if I actually had a chance with you. Would you fall for me? I’ve dreamed you would. But that’s all it was-just dreams. I fell in love with an idea of you. I don’t want to hold onto this idea of you anymore, but it’s so hard to say goodbye. Sometimes I wish you had never existed in the first place, because maybe then this would have never happened. Silly, huh?
I wish you didn’t seem so perfect. I wish I knew something about you that would make you undesirable to me. I wish I could get over this and be done with it, but I know letting go will be an uphill battle. Still, I’m ready for that struggle. I don’t want this anymore. One day, I hope to be able to see you again without feeling that same crushing feeling. To be able to laugh at your jokes. To be able to enjoy being with you again, just in a “friendly” sort of way.
For now, I can’t see you. I know you never meant to do this to me, but I need to take myself away from it all so that I can focus on getting around it and letting it go. One day, maybe, I’ll be able to face you again.
For now, my friend, this is goodbye.