• Love don’t die

    by  • March 1, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Thinking of you • 3 Comments

    M,

    You know I never remember my dreams, but I dreamt about you last night and can remember every detail. I woke up aching realizing the happiness and comfort I felt was all just a dream.

    It’s been almost two years since we broke up. I’ve dated other people and feel like a completely different person now. One thing that hasn’t changed is that you’re always in the back of my mind. Guys here and there distract me, but at the end of the day, thats all it is. A distraction.

    I can’t reach out to you though. I was the one who ended things and I feel like I really broke your heart. It wouldn’t be fair for me to come back into your life when it seems like you’re doing just fine without me.

    I guess now this is where I let fate take over. If we are meant to be, we will be.
    I really hope we cross paths.

    -J

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    3 Responses to Love don’t die

    1. sever
      March 2, 2014 at 12:28 am

      go back to your distractions. they are what you choose and choices are always well thought out and proeplanned done inb your best interest as everything else in your life. I am eargerly wiaitng for the day this tie whoch is more like a pison sentence is over so i can walk away and never look back. never.




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    2. j
      March 2, 2014 at 6:48 pm

      I hope we do too.




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    3. Me
      August 14, 2017 at 8:13 pm

      J,
      While I too believe that real true love doesn’t die…I also know (thanks to you) that love can also be a devastating, life altering weapon of indescribable true pain. My love for you isn’t dead. Its true that it is still alive, deep inside of me…but is barely hanging on by a thread. The thread that will always be just that, a thread. You didn’t just break my heart. You scarred me. You scarred me because you used my true feelings for you as a deadly weapon of mass destruction and because I loved you, when I think of you…all I know is immense pain. So yes, love never dies…but what I would give for it to just fade away from me. You speak of fate as though YOU haven’t altered that for us already? We could have been incredible together and as long as we both knew and felt in out hearts that we were meant to be, then THAT was good enough for me to be considered FATE. This is not some theory of letting each other go to see if fate would bring us back together. How can it be when our love was the uncontrollable and ungodly vile and sadistic weapon you used towards US and our FATE? Our fate is now. The present. And your right. It would be incredibly wrong of you to show up in my life now that I have a good guy that loves me and treats me like I’m valuable to him. I have to live for the rest of my life with the pain that is our love. I have to move on and try to be happy like I tried to do with you. You? You have to live for the rest of your life knowing that THIS is our fate and its because of YOU that this is what we became. So don’t you dare…ever, ever just show up in my life again because how you were even capable of doing this to us without a second thought? Is something unforgiveable. I am happy with my life now and I don’t care if you are or not. Goodbye J. Forever.
      Me




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