The best decision I ever made was leaving you. Not that it wasn’t the most difficult thing I ever had to do. I have put your feelings, wants and needs before mine so many times due to your issues. It cost me way too much self hatred and codependence. It’s been a long time coming but I’m done. My feelings matter. I matter. And you have always been too self involved with your self induced chaos to see it for more than a day at a time. Nothing and no one is worth this much work with so much pain. You are a fake, a farce, an excuse. You are so fucking hurtful and selfish. Fuck you and your bread crumbs along the way. You and your mind numbing managing down my expectations. Oh but when you needed me oh how the declarations and attention shined! Stupid stupid stupid blind idiot I was. No, fuck that. I’m not an idiot for caring. I’m an excellent person who LET you slide. I’m so done and I will never be there for you again because of what you did. You are a liar. You are a user. Your whole scenerio is bullshit. Created by bullshit and fed by dependence on others. I made so many mistakes. And a major one was ever letting you get close to me again. You shit on me time and time again. I believed you. I cared. You never deserved any of it. Never. Your actions never really amounted to anything but getting the attention you wanted and leaving me wondering wtf. It’s funny how hindsight is 20/20 when a person lets go of someone else’s insanity and lives for themselves with others who actually walk the walk. Good luck with that lie. I’m done believing. You’ll never see this. You’ll never search this out. You’ll never hear from me again. You have enough self made drama I’m sure as hell not giving you the satisfaction of knowing how much you hurt me. AGAIN. Go to hell you fucking vampire leech coward.