• I Choose You

    by  • September 30, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Happy • 4 Comments

    It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.

    I have a choice. I need to remember that.

    Happiness, in a lot of ways, is a choice. And I need to start choosing it.

    I’m happy with you. I really am. You make me feel like a good person. Maybe even an important person. And I want to live like Augustus Waters did. I don’t want to be in the business of denying myself simple pleasures. And for these last few weeks, I have tried to block you out, because I was so afraid of falling in love with a straight girl. I was terrified. I got so hurt by her—I let myself get hurt. And I didn’t want to let it happen again.

    But I am no longer in the business of denying myself simple pleasures. I’m still scared. But I have learned to recognize when I am happy, and I recognize now that I am happy when I’m with you.

    And if I find that I’m not happy with those other people, if they make me feel less, unimportant, unnoticed—then I don’t need to subject myself to that. I don’t need to feel that way. I have a choice. And I choose happiness. I choose to let myself feel happy around you. I choose to let us become good friends, close friends. I choose to take that risk, and if I end up giving my heart away, then I’ll deal with that then. But right now, you make me happy, and that’s what I need.

    I refuse to deny myself simple pleasures.
    I refuse to keep living in fear.
    I refuse.
    I have a choice.
    I choose happiness.
    I choose you.

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    4 Responses to I Choose You

    1. Hope
      September 30, 2013 at 11:03 am

      If you were my person, I would say I am sorry for the pain that I caused. It was never on purpose. I would also say that I love you enough to let you go be happy. I would tell you that all I ever wanted for you was happiness and that I am sorry I wasn’t ready to do that for you. Finally, I would tell you that I will be happy for you to be happy. Go ahead and grab that happiness because you are important and you do deserve it. You are not him, but thanks for letting me comment as though you were.


    2. Straight Girl
      September 30, 2013 at 1:10 pm

      Are you sure your past is past? Or have you been looking for reasons and excuses to deny that straight girl is your end game? Maybe she’s older and wiser now and the old hurt would fade into the darkness and be replaced by the complete bliss that you both deserve but weren’t ready to fully act on or appreciate.


    3. If you were
      September 30, 2013 at 3:30 pm

      If you are someone I know, which I doubt you are. I would say you’re a freak and not necessarily in a good way.


    4. not so straight
      October 1, 2013 at 2:45 am

      This reminds me of myself in a way it seems I Could have wrote this myself As I actually Said a few of these things to someone i Love yesterday who is the straight girl strangely enough..it seems I Could Have copied what was written but luckily enough it hadnt been posted.



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