…and back. that is how much i miss you.
that is how much i love you.
and that is how far away you feel; from me. from us. from safety.
18 days. is that only how long you’ve been gone? because to me it feels like months. with each passing day in my planner, i know the distance causes doubt to grow in your mind and your sweet, sweet heart. but baby, i have never felt so strong about you! you occupy my thoughts every second of every day. when i walk through town, i wonder what your hair would look like in the fall wind. what your smile would look like in the sun (beautiful, i already know). how you would dance to the song playing in my headphones, and how your clothes would lie. although you can’t see me, or sometimes even speak with me, everything i do is to impress you. i’m living for you everyday, all the way from America.
but, i know that very soon my pain and emptiness will subside, or rather come to a halt, when you come home to me.
i’ve been writing down everything we are going to do once you are back. i’m never wasting a minute that i get to have to with you from this point on, forever.
did you know that i love you?
and miss you.
to the moon and back, love bug.