You are a teenager. Every teenager wants to experiment, have a relationship, sow their wild oats… WHAT THE HECK IS YOUR PROBLEM????
You have had the perfect guy… adorable, brilliant, fun, kind and completely in love with you hanging around for most of your teen years. He was your best friend, you love him and he wanted to be your everything. He truely loved you and time after time you said no… girls were lined up for him but all he wanted was you and every single time you said no. Other guys have asked you out… and no, never any of them. You get invited to parties and no, no parties… no experimenting, no drinking, no drugs, no dating… what the heck is wrong with you?
You are not normal. You are not like anyone else. You have ruined the best thing that could ever come your way. You have hurt so many people. Why…? Why…? This is not ok.