I know you’ve had my back all of my life even though I haven’t believed it until recently. And I thank you for that. I’m so glad I found someone who I can rely on through the good and the awful. I am never alone with you.
I want to put all of the care and love you give me and give it to T. for the next week. Keep her safe when she is at home. Help her to stay sober and enjoy her trip. Shit can happen to me and I know i’ll be okay but can you help her believe she will be too? I don’t want her to relapse again because I’m afraid she won’t return. And I know she really wants this and that she is so capable of making it through this trip sober.
I have prayed to have her be happy even if I’m not in her life. I don’t want to harm her- I can’t believe that I am capable of causing more harm than good but I guess that what makes me human.
I’m worried about her and I need to have more faith in you because you’ll take care of her and I need to accept that you are in control of her life too and that everything will happen for a reason.
I just want her to come home and be happy. I would like her to be in my life again too but I’d rather her be sober and happy than miserable with me.
Just take care of her okay?