Thank you for being so loyal. “Wife”
Those Tears Were Not Sadness
Those tears I cried when I broke your heart were not sadness and regret; they were tears of relief and freedom. I stayed with your pitiful soul almost a year longer than I should have. I did love you briefly. For some time it was true, but then the “I love you”s became lies and I tried so hard to make those words honest again.
That is why it took me so long to leave. You refused to accept our relationship wasn’t perfect and you didn’t listen when I tried to talk about the problems that needed fixing. I was on my own. I tried all summer and things still weren’t better. I needed a release and I finally fucked that fucker I’d been dying to do since the moment I met him two years before. After I said goodnight to you I would video chat him for hours, and every weekend I was in his bed. He was never boyfriend material, just a fuck buddy. You can thank him for giving me the strength to stay with you those last six months.
I hated everything about you. I hate the same things about you now that bothered me when we first started dating. It is so easy to love and hate someone at the same time. The thought of breaking up rang in my head for months and months but all the while I thought you were still worth it. I don’t know what did it, but I finally reached a breaking point and set myself free. I couldn’t be happier. I am still in disbelief at how much better my quality of life is now. Although it was utter hell, I’m glad I dated you. You taught me a thousand lessons that I owe to your immaturity, foolishness, and disgrace.
Are you really that blind?