So why do I continue to hold on to this sliver of hope. Constantly torturing myself everyday looking for anything that would remind me. I can only wait until it finally passes and I can become numb again. This always happens everytime these fucking memories come flooding back and stay for months. I never knew about sites like these until a month or two ago. I never thought I had to look I can’t help but to think that these are just my feelings and mine alone and my time has came and went. This is by far the hardest it has ever hit me it’s easy to pretend when you’re not reminded. Why can’t I let go after damn near a decade.