I really want to ask you if you have any feelings for me now? But i’m scared of what the answer will be in case you reject me again, but I feel things have changed now, things seem different between us. I wish I had the courage to just come out and ask you if you love me or have feelings towards me but fear is holding me back and the not knowing is driving me mad. I wish you would give me a sign. The way you act with me indicates that you do but because of the situation and circumstances that we are in it seems to me maybe you are too scared to or you don’t want to cross that line because of “our situation” because it could be not the right thing to do. I know u have loyalties and it could be wrong, but to me it is so right. Because I love you and I want to know if you hold any feelings for me. It’s the not knowing that is driving me mad and I feel crazy because I feel it in my heart of hearts that you have fallen for me. Do you know I just want to know I just want the answer, I wouldn’t even act on it and it wouldn’t change a thing except me knowing i’m not going crazy. That is what has dragged me down all this time thinking you love me and then thinking maybe i’m just reading everything you do wrong. And I know people will say “if your person hasn’t told you they love you then ur just in denial or deluded or just take it as no they don’t” but they don’t see what I see they don’t see the way you act with me they don’t know the situation or anything it’s not as simple as that, someone can hide their feelings it doesn’t mean they don’t love you.