Thinking about walking away from someone who loves me because I clearly don’t love them anymore, i’m not even sure if I did in the first place.
sounds stupid when you have been in a relationship with someone for nearly 11 years.
how you can stick it out for so long, the thing I think i’ve come to learn is security and change, I don’t like change, because i’m scared of the what ifs, and when it comes down to it what ifs don’t really matter if i’m not happy them why am I putting my self through this for another ten plus years?
I’m in such a situation where it’s going to be really hard but I think it will all work out for me, well i’m hoping it will.
I need to get some money saved around me I need to get more confidence and be able to cope on my own without the security’s of someone else.
I need to leave I need to get away from this worn out relationship which clearly isn’t working no matter how many times we talk over it and try and smooth over the cracks it just isn’t working anymore.
I don’t have any feelings in my relationship certainly not sexual or anything apart from caring about them.
It’s all just me I am not happy anymore. I know it’s going to hurt but it’s got to be done.. i’m just biding my time for the right right moment to work up the courage and confidence to say “that’s it, it’s over” and walk away and survive by myself.