it’s just even harder because now i can’t even properly be depressed about it because school starts tomorrow. I haven’t even wanted to get out of bed and now i have to start school again which brings on a whole different set of anxiety. I’ve been awake for two hours now and all I’ve done is contemplate whether or not i have the energy to shower. I’ts been six days and I’ve managed to chew my lips. I go from turning on the tv to turning it off because something reminded me of you. I go from having this false feeling of relief and a sense of ease and then it all shatters and i feel like i’m falling. I keep telling myself that it’s okay, but it doesn’t feel that way at all. I wish i could just have one more weekend off. Why did you have to do this now? Have you thought of me at all?