I cannot hold anything from you, even this. Even the single hardest thing I have ever had to do. I ask in return that you be there at the end of it. I think it is a fair request. I know it maybe difficult for you. Possibly as difficult as what it is you ask me to face. It’s also possible you have an exit strategy already in place. You seem the type to think so many moves ahead. After all, the thing loses it’s meaning if you are not there at the end of it. Does it not?
Someone said to me yesterday that the whole thing is so complicated it needs a flow chart, but I already have a map of the thing etched into my very soul. I believe you did that quite intentionally. I am yours a thousand times over. I cannot hold that from you either. I believe you did that quite intentionally as well. You seized the opportunities that came your way and held on to them with such relentlessness. A kind of determination I have never known in another person.
I am forced to admit that your plan is quite brilliant and subtle and forceful all at the same time. If you were anyone else, I would not believe it. If you were anyone else, I would not feel this way about you. I am eager to explore you more fully. That will not change. I have to wonder if that was intentional as well… You do things with such a deliberate madness that it seems likely.
I am determined to make you feel the heat of my desire for you, the urgency with which I crave you. I will do whatever it takes to be with you.