I think I hide in my confusion because once I understand, I’ll have to accept what is. I don’t trust myself anymore in regard to you. I know if I let you in it’s not going to be okay. It’s a mistake. All reason points in the opposite direction of you. I just want to stop loving you. Maybe if you let me go I’ll finally feel it and it will be okay. It shouldn’t still hurt like this. I should be over this and so should you. We should be one of those ex-couples who don’t have any emotional attachment anymore and can just look back and smile at the memories. Why aren’t we like those people? Is this what we have to look forward to? More of the same? I hope not. I’m so tired. I can feel myself slipping back. I miss you so much and I don’t want to anymore. Okay? Maybe if we let go at the same time it won’t hurt us as much. Maybe that’s the last thing we can do together for one another.