• Once I’m Gone

    by  • August 21, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 5 Comments

    I’m gone for good

    Once it’s lost in the depth of my own impossibility and non-caring
    It’s lost forever

    Once I made up my mind
    There is no turning back

    There never was
    There never is

    Because there was and will
    always be a solid reason for it

    have to choose

    …it’s only a matter of time

    but you know that
    you always did

    I never lied either

    The only place I will keep you forever
    is in my heart and soul
    nothing can / will ever change this

    but what’s love got to do with anything

    Once I’m gone
    I am gone for good

    I have been close, ah so close so many times
    with each time I am coming closer though
    closer to taking the choice away from you

    …little by little
    until all nerves to cause pain are numb
    and dead
    …little by little

    If you really feel me
    If you are listening to what I tell you
    really listening and not read between non-existing lines

    you – you really do know

    you – you really do know

    Hypocrisy and double standard have limits
    please stop pretending to be blind

    I know – I really do know you
    all of you

    …and still don’t love you any less

    Time will tell

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    5 Responses to Once I’m Gone

    1. @Author
      August 21, 2013 at 10:33 am

      This game has come to an end as you had already sailed so long ago. To write and try not in person is wrong and look where it has got us. It could never work because YOU & only YOU won’t outstretch your hand physically!!! So say what you will as your words, though loving pain me no end as you are but torturing my soul for how am I meant to “hold you in my arms & say how I feel…I love you”! This banter is twisted to say the least. Yes it is what it is by your own doing. I ask you? No, tell me? How am I meant to when all you do is speak not meet??? An impossible situation as what…you wish for me to go insane by being in limbo till you’ve made your mind up? How many names & tongues do you speak under….I know. All this back & forth would be gone in an instant if only we were to actually hold each other in each others arms & you would know just as I did last time what we both felt. I dare you to tell me I’m wrong? I felt more that night embracing you than I have ever felt. I felt your spirit I kid you not. You felt me too I know you do as it felt like eternity and you didn’t wish to let go nor I…My love I do not wish to talk like this to you, all we do is bicker here for what to destroy our own large loving hearts. We were magic together and look at what it has become…words no action so once more I agree actions do mean so much more than words. My heart was & is yours yet no once more you discard me. Goodbye you for one final last time she who dreamt the same dream we both still want. Go forth and if this is your choice please never look back for this man can’t do this no more as I am not a fool or crazy as you kept this happening when all you had to do was be woth me as I you(yeah as if I could remember why what you did???) And to think I’m still madly in love with you. Goodbye you………..


    2. Ok so...
      August 21, 2013 at 6:34 pm

      Still a chance? But they have to make the choice? Sounds urgent. What’s so urgent? 😉


    3. @Ok so...
      August 22, 2013 at 10:48 am

      Once more you mock me M!!! Thank you though for that is all the answer I need. No you already made your bed so go lie in it as I now want to go away from you as you wanted so long ago….DO you enjoy tormenting me here I say so. I thought you had changed your mind and you had then back to the other you once more. Having fun? It reveals who you really are….sad really for your doing what ypu despise so much so you only have proven me right with all I originally said:( I wish I was wrong as unlie you I’m not bitter………………


    4. Ok so
      August 23, 2013 at 2:21 pm

      I am not mocking you but curious. I am not a M but an N.


    5. Author
      August 23, 2013 at 8:09 pm

      @Author – I am not your other. Seems you confuse many of my writings as being to you and I don’t even write that many. That’s pretty weird and makes me feel uncomfortable to express myself in LINS.

      Letters I will never send! If I wanted to express this to him directly, I simply would and in a way..he knows anyway.

      @OK so…Your comment made me laugh. Thank you for that. Urgency is indeed but only in the moments we feel this urgency. Than again, once those moments of urgency ever stop? A lot more may has already 😉 Food for thought and I believe this thought somehow shines through in my sentiments to begin with.

      Best wishes to both of you.



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