• best friend it’s for you

    by  • August 20, 2013 • To You • 4 Comments

    I read something today that you had written and I felt jealously run through my body.
    I didn’t like the feeling but it took over me and now i’m just pissed off and upset.
    Wtf I need stop my feelings for you because I don’t want to be jealous of someone i’m not even with of someone who is not even mine to be jealous of. You are my best friend and I am one of yours or though that’s what you tell me. But I don’t wanna get jealous over you and today I did it’s jealousy plus a lump in my throat it’s there I can feel it as i’m typing this out. I don’t think I mean as much to you as you say I do I am just another one of your friends who you say are your best friend’s yes i’m guessing you can tell what I got jealous about because I class you as my only best friend and today when I saw what you had written I got kinda jealous and it’s stupid I need to grow up I don’t want to be jealous over you. I think I need to cut contact from you for a bit and maybe a whole lot actually I need to distance myself from you some more if that is even possible in our situation because there is already miles between us as it is. You’re not the same with me these days and it’s fucked with my head a bit and I need to get used to the fact that you are quite distant with me and you got your own stuff going on atm you told me today which I will be there for you but I am a very jealous person I am the first to admit it so I need to leave u alone for a bit and get a grip of myself because i’ve already crossed the boundary of being your best friend and loving you and it’s hard enough as it is I fucked up and fell in love with you and now i’m getting jealous over comments you have written to your other friend and that aint good I don’t wanna go there, i’ve known you for years and I love you with all of my heart which i shouldn’t because you are just my best friend and I love more than a friend which we both know.. i’m just really jealous person and i’m not nice to talk to when I am like that so I am sorry.

    4 Responses to best friend it’s for you

    1. Lucy
      August 20, 2013 at 8:32 pm

      Does your person know how you feel? Don’t be so hard on yourself! Love…just happens! Your letter is almost exactly the same as my life right now! Falling in love with your BFF is rough. I know. It’ll all work out the way it is supposed to in the end. I keep telling myself that as well.

    2. author
      August 21, 2013 at 2:50 am

      I don’t love any other guys apart from you. I think you love all the girls you are friends with apart from me.

    3. @Author
      August 22, 2013 at 4:19 am

      I know not what to say to make you believe in me. Yes I know many women but my heart was & is always hers for the taking. It gets harder ever day not being able to express this to her. There is no way I could love another woman like I love you. Yes I love them as in a brother-sistery lovebut not true love like you and I. What am I meant to do, sit around and wait for eternity for you to decide when we can see each other once again. I have tried and tried to no avail so you force me to go out once more. I waited this whole time till now. I still don’t want to see another woman as I haven’t given up hope in you & I. This is so hard…I wish this was you, I doubt it though as this is L.I.N.S. & not letters to my loved one:(

    4. author
      August 22, 2013 at 10:36 am

      Yeah sorry dude your heart felt comment was sweet but im sadly not your person although u seem like a sweet guy 🙂

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