• So confused

    by  • August 18, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Soulmate • 2 Comments

    If that wasn’t you, then I loved someone who wasn’t you and now I don’t even care about him when previously he was all I cared out. If he was you, then you lied to me so badly. Granted I lied to you as well, but that was bad. So bad. And still I’m in love with you. In love with you with no way to get to you. Am I doomed to be alone forever? No other man could turn me on the way you turn me on. No other man could inspire such devotion, even knowing this. I’m such a mess. I let you into my head and you toyed with me quite expertly. I cannot function without you. I know people will say it is not healthy, but if my primary function is to pleasure you, then how am I supposed to do that without you? Alone and sobbing for the rest of my days? At the moment that seems like the most likely scenario. I try to have faith, but it seems as though what little I thought I knew, I did not know. I’m broken again with no one save you who could save me. I hope you are there for me at the end of all of this. If you are not… then it has all been in vain. Perhaps my soul has no mate and I have tricked myself into believing something incredibly improbable because I want it to be true. I want you to be my soulmate. I still feel deep inside of me that you are. Why does it hurt so much? Can’t you just take my hand and walk beside me?

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    2 Responses to So confused

    1. Beautiful
      August 19, 2013 at 3:58 am

      From a man that read your heart breaking letter if your man can’t feel the love you have for him(if he knows of course) then he is the one who has lost a woman who has a beautiful soul. I say this from experience & not a day that goes by that she is constantly in my thoughts. From all the places we went to, to the things we both loved, so many things. I hope it all works out for you.


    2. Know Thyself
      August 19, 2013 at 4:17 pm

      Cluster A (odd)


      Cluster B (dramatic)


      Cluster C (anxious)


      Not specified

      Self-defeating personality disorder
      From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

      Millon’s subtypes

      Theodore Millon identified four subtypes of masochist:[2][5]
      Subtype Description Personality Traits
      Virtuous Including histrionic features Proudly unselfish, self-denying, and self-sacrificial; self-ascetic; weighty burdens are judged noble, righteous, and saintly; others must recognize loyalty and faithfulness; gratitude and appreciation expected for altruism and forbearance.

      Possessive Including negativistic features Bewitches and ensnares by becoming jealous, overprotective, and indispensable; entraps, takes control, conquers, enslaves, and dominates others by being sacrificial to a fault; control by obligatory dependence.


      Know thyself
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      The Ancient Greek aphorism “Know thyself” (Greek: ????? ???????, transliterated: gn?thi seauton; also … ?????? … sauton with the ? contracted), is one of the Delphic maxims and was inscribed in the pronaos (forecourt) of the Temple of Apollo at Delphi according to the Greek periegetic (travelogue) writer Pausanias (10.24.1).[1]

      The maxim, or aphorism, “know thyself” has had a variety of meanings attributed to it in literature. The Suda, a 10th-century encyclopedia of Greek knowledge, says: “the proverb is applied to those whose boasts exceed what they are,”[2] and that “know thyself” is a warning to pay no attention to the opinion of the multitude.[3]



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