I have fallen for someone I shouldn’t have. Reasons being: there are many odds against us, we do not communicate anymore and it all seems so wrong. I cannot help the way I feel. I am severely infatuated with this person. This is not just a crush. It has been two years. I think I am in love. whenever he looked at me my whole world was turned up side down, inside out, scattered, electrified, everything. I try to move on but I cannot forget him. I have moved on but I haven’t. I am still hung up on him even though I am in a relationship. I want to write him a letter but I am afraid it will either fall into the wrong hands or it wont have an effect on him if he does not feel the same. I believe he does but I truly will not know until he tells me or proves it. While I am on my journey of exploration and transitions please bring him back into my life. Please. I want a life with him. Whether he is just my neighbor, my mentor, my friend, I just want him here with me. I am so tired of being separated from everything i love. This one seems to be having the biggest effect on me. My dearest fate please bring us together again. I am willing to wait two more years. Even though this year away were absolute torture I would have to.