• what am i asking

    by  • August 13, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 3 Comments

    I’m not sure if I know what I am asking either. What I should ask you us if you’ll be mean to me so it will break my heart and make me go away. So that I can get on with my life and stop being so damn hung up on you. I am in a daze were all I think about is you. First thing in the morning last thing at night. All the time in between. The thought of you being mean to me makes my heart feel like a hairball caught in the back of my throat and tears race down my cheek. So I’m not thinking I’m going to request that from you in all honesty.

    What I truly want to know is if you want to run away with me. I don’t care about where ir when or how just as long as I get to be in your company long enough to figure out what this over whelming pull is that I have teases you is. I know I could never ask that for fear of hearing you didn’t even want to spend an afternoon in my company. That would crush me so its a risk I doubt i’ll take.

    More than likely I will keep all of my inquiries to myself and simply ask you that if you remember me then maybe could we be friends. I guarantee you I’d make a wonderful friend. That I have full faith in. I already long to talk to you daily and any action I take I always have your best interest in mind. You have more friends than you know what to do with so it’s hard for me to feel I should ask this too.

    I don’t know what else to ask I feel I have the right to except for “so how are you today? ”

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    3 Responses to what am i asking

    1. :)
      August 13, 2013 at 11:11 am

      Wow I couldnt have put that better myself GREAT LETTER!!


    2. I'll Run Away With You
      August 13, 2013 at 7:19 pm

      My bags are packed I’d say to her! Like you she is in my thoughts the moment I awake till I sleep & then the dreams lol. To solve the mystery that we both say pulls us to & fro is because of a four letter word? To be friends once more is a given I promise you & even though I have many friends there are none that will ever come close to the friendship I desire with you! I am smiling is what I am today so i say meet me on Friday at that Italian restaurant you frequently dine at down the road form your work? Midday I shall be there I promise.

      I hope this is her for otherwise I’ll be dining by myself for the very first time in my life. Great food they serve so I will still smile.


    3. My Self Inflicted Wound
      September 3, 2013 at 1:17 am

      My healing heart that turned down an offer of friendship similar in situation to yours, & out of the fear out of mistrust for them as I was unsure it was genuine or out of sympathy. I still wonder if it would have been worth the risk. I will never know for I didn’t take it out of preservation of my wounded heart. Instead of wishing, I should have said yes & allowed it to unfold for what did we have to lose as we now have lost each other entirely:( God I miss my friend for we are friend;s no longer.



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