That you acknowledged my exsistance? Not talking to me only confirms my fear that you dislike me because of the way I behaved. Could there be any other explanation. Because i’m running out of faith. Are you punishing me on purpose? Will it always be like this? I don’t have the mindset to take it anymore. It would be so much more compassionate if you just told me to piss off directly instead of making me wonder. I’ll never give up on you ever unless you say to. Say something please.